I do not feel sleepy at all even though it is past two in the morning. I almost never sleep if I am going to travel the next morning (I am going back to KL at seven in the morning, which is less than five hours away). I thought I could watch vlogs whilst making Juju's birthday card, because we're celebrating her birthday on Monday, but a) the internet connection is terrible, hence Youtube videos stop more than they play, and the same happens to iFlix videos since they require an internet connection as well, and b) I don't feel like making a card because I am sad, because MY HUSBAND IS MISSING! I know he is probably safe and sound, and probably just went grocery shopping, but he is supposed to be back from work three hours ago (5 p.m. German time / 11 p.m. Malaysian time). And I have been waiting and waiting for him to go online on Whatsapp but he hasn't, and I know he doesn't have a local sim card, so he is not subscribed to mobile data, so it's not like he can contact me when he's outside, but where the hell is he?? It sucks to be halfway around the world from your husband and not being able to hear his voice for a whole day. It sucks to not be able to talk to him when I'm feeling depressed, of which I currently am feeling quite so. I'm sad. Even if I can't cry and tell him why I'm feeling depressed, it's okay, as long as I get to hear his voice. But he is still not online, and it's making me sadder than ever.

I wanted to write about a few things when I signed into this blog tonight. But instead here are my not-so-little ramblings about my missing husband. And I don't feel like writing about those other things anymore. I just want my husband.

Sofiya