I went to a few relatives' houses today to give them their wedding invitations; I felt a bit better about myself for meeting them because honestly I am awkward with people outside my immediate family, so I have actually avoided meeting relatives throughout the years. I think this is also part of the reason I deactivated my Facebook account. I tried telling myself that I am an adult now, there is nothing to be nervous about, and confidence is key. It kind of worked, in addition to the fact that they were all sooo welcoming and happy that I am getting married! I think I have social anxiety. I have thought about overcoming it through vlogging, because I used to feel awkward of even looking at the camera, but after a few vlogs I have started to look straight into the camera as if it were a real person, and I have reduced looking down or blinking or looking away, and in turn I am able to do the same when talking to people. Although, I am still not confident enough to publish said vlogs.

Anyways. after going to relatives houses my brother, his fiance and I went to Ikea for bed shopping because my brother just moved into a new house. I LOVE LOVE LOVE going to Ikea. Oh My God I want to be able to afford everything in Ikea someday! We did not buy anything, but we had a lie down on a few beds which were oh-my-God so comfy. My brother might buy one of the beds when he has enough money (he just started a new job). Last night I baked three jars of chocolate chip cookies and brought some for my brother and his fiance. His fiance said they tasted so good, to which I cannot agree more, because as vain as it sounds, I myself cannot get enough of my own chocolate chip cookies. Hey, there are a lot of things that I fail at, but I make the best chocolate chip cookies.

Talk (or rather, write) more soon!

Sofiya